Mr. Berning, a resident of Santa Fe since 1981, is a well known artist, author, teacher, and former gallery owner . His works have been exhibited in such diverse locations as San Francisco, Paris, and New York’s Lincoln Center. In 2005 his paintings became the focus of the film OFF THE MAP starring Joan Allen and Sam Elliott. Also in 2005 he began a year long journey up the west coast of North America. Experiences during this time became the foundation for his memoir about art, which was written over the next three years.
Evocative of the New Mexico landscape with its sweeping vistas and ever changing light, these most recent oil, egg tempera, and watercolor paintings are the result of a fifteen year process described in the entry “A Figurative Derivation”.
Artist Statement:
Being a painter, I was born in 1951 already an antique. After a lifetime of creating images in this post modern world I have come to champion no ism’s. Taking to heart my eighty year old friend’s reminder that his generation made sure everything had been done, I have proceeded to do everything in each painting. The resulting fifteen oil paintings, though inevitably stamped with my distinctive aesthetic voice, travel freely through various fields of contemporary exploration. Accepting that the act of working in paint will result in the echo of vaguely familiar imagery from past painters has released me from the tyrannical demand for newness and, ironically, opened the process to a multitude of possibilities embodied in each individual painting. If it has all been done before there is no territory worth defending. One either stands on shifting sands, or swims.
Jemez Complex / Winter Dressed / View South, West, North
The Jemez Complex is an extinct super volcano. It was created one million years ago in a series of massive explosions. What remains is a mountain of remarkably varied topography. Here, seen from Lower Pacheco Canyon, 20 miles away, the mountain range presents itself in its greatest majesty. These paintings were completed late in the afternoon on consecutive days.
While each panel stands well on its own, I am fascinated by how they speak to each other, lending a transcendent layer of complexity to the whole; this while its palette captures perfectly this blue-steel, mid-winter light.
Jemez Complex / Winter Dressed / View South
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Jemez Complex / Winter Dressed / View West
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Jemez Complex / Winter Dressed / View North
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Bright Winter / Sangre de Cristo Range
This winter sun, under clear skies, reflected off snow covered mountains can be blinding.
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Metallic Sunset / Pena Blanca
This view, looks out over agricultural fields which end in a tree line where the Rio Grande River runs through. The foothills of the southern end of the Jemez Range rise in the distance. Done the day before a snow storm, bands of high clouds were moving in from the west.
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Long View / St Peters Dome
“Long View / St Peters Dome” is another painting from the Cochiti Village paint site. Cliffs of blasted earth have been smoothed by a million years into these powerful undulating forms. They were too distant to truly be capture in this painting. Still, I managed to find some of their magnitude.
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Dome Wilderness / South Gate
I try not to be sentimental. As an artist, it is a mistake to place too much emotional or psychic meaning into these places I visit. It simply does not help with the work. While painting this view from Cochiti Village a thought kept needling my brain. ‘This is not just a distant view of the plateaus from which the Rio Grande River emerges from the Jemez Range, but rather there is some portal here’. I was delighted then to later discover its name: Dome Wilderness / South Gate.
This new series of monoprints are based on recent watercolors using an “image-on” platemaking process. They are hand inked, one-of-a-kind, artist produced images. This series began in April of 2023 as part of the Santa Fe Monothon. During the week long event I had a great time returning to my printmaking roots. I hope to add to this series as the year progresses.
Image size is 18″ x 24″ on 24″ x 30″ Arches 88 paper
Thus far we have had a productive monsoon season with afternoon storms rolling in almost every afternoon. After last years arid smoke filled summer it is a relief. Many of these late season paintings have become about the monsoons.
All these images measure 18″ x 24″ on 24″ x 30″ paper.
Tetilla Peak From Bonanza Ranch
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Storm Over The Sangre De Cristo Mountains
This was completed last month when spring storms had left the skies in a constant state of drama.
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Spring Bosque / Road to Lyden
Another from this spring. The new-green in the trees had me aching for summer. Now summer is here with a heat wave. I stopped by this paint site yesterday and found this valley dense with foliage, green upon green upon green.
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Long View to Pedernal
I’ve been trying to paint the distinctive Pedernal. O’Keeffe painted it many times and said “God told me once if I painted it enough, I could have it.” This is the first version I have felt comfortable enough with to mount and photograph.
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The Ghosts of La Cienega
Nestled in sensuous hills south of Santa Fe is the village of La Cienega. In the early days wagon trains would stop at El Rancho de las Golondrinas (now a museum of sorts) to refresh themselves before the journey north to Santa Fe or south to Albuquerque. The roads, lined with ancient cottonwoods, have always felt a bit haunted to me thus, when this image appeared on my easil, the title.
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Minimal Horizon / Tetilla Peak
These two paintings were done from Bonanza Ranch Road. I have spent a lot of time painting from this high point in the landscape which signals the transition between southern and northern New Mexico. Big views and multiple horizons.
Minimal Horizon / Cerrillos Hills
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Foothills / Manzano Range 1
Meant to hang together (obviously) these two pieces were done from a high point on Waldo Canyon Road looking east to the Ortiz Range.
Foothills / Manzano Range 2
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Summer Bosque / Road to Lyden
The first painting of this place was in winter. I returned to capture it in the spring with its tree branches budding new-green. Here the trees of summer and humid warmth of the air lend a more sculptural feel to this scene, the whole image becoming less wild and more bucolic.
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Bridge to La Cienega
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Sandia Blue II
The only opaque area of this painting is the distant Sandia Range, which translates in the photo as the lightest and most airy portion of the image. Thus the title “Sandia Blue”.
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Long View to Pojoaque / Early Light
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Monsoon Summer / Jemez Range
This time of year clouds build over the Jemez Range, 20 miles to the west, then move east to rain on our city. This one became a big blow just as I was finishing. The evenings are cool from the fresh rains.
MANY YEARS AGO I concluded that painting representational landscapes of New Mexico was a fool’s errand. Those vistas would always overwhelm any attempt to be captured with such a measly medium as paint on canvas. Also, there are so many artists in New Mexico that have made a life’s work of the subject and are capable of doing a much better job of it than me. Still, sometimes we simply have to do the work for the nourishment of our spirit. And, to be honest, I have never done a thing that did not contain the stamp of my personal aesthetic. AND SO, with the heat of summer underway, I find myself venturing outside with my sketch tools and watercolors to paint from life. This ‘on location’ work has been keeping me engaged. With the pandemic having removed many of the common signposts of daily life, this return to observational painting and the landscape I’ve loved for the last 40 years has been emotionally grounding. AT THE MOMENT I am thinking of this work as an intermission. A time to grab a popcorn and coke, and a smoke on the sidewalk outside the theater, before the next act.
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“Black Mesa”
‘BLACK MESA’ STARTED all this plein air work. It was completed over a three day period with me working out the back of our Honda CRV while Meg collected trash along side the road or read her book. Later we would have a picnic dinner before driving home in the dark; three perfect pandemic evenings.
I drove by this spirit-place four times a day for several years. This was 40 years ago when I had just moved to New Mexico. It is a personal touchstone and a place I’ve always wanted to paint.
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“Overlook Park / North, East, South View”
THIS SECOND THREE panel painting has taken several weeks to complete and involved repeated visits to the site. This view, from a mesa 800 feet above the valley floor, looks north to the Colorado border, east to the Sangre de Cristo range, and south into White Rock Canyon through which the Rio Grande River flows on its way to Cochiti Reservoir. This place has always stunned me into silent humility.
Daring to attempt this vista is a testament to my painterly ambitions and an illustration of just how foolhardy an endeavor this attempt to capture the spaces of New Mexico can be. Still, I like the results.
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“Long View North / Abiquiu Lake”
“Long View North / Abiquiu Lake” is the result of two mornings’ attempts to paint the lake, which lies at the northern edge of the Jemez Complex. From my vantage point well above the water I had a large view of the lake and its surrounding typography which included the western edge of Ghost Ranch several miles distant. Several failed attempts offered busy, illustrative renderings with little sense of the actual space and light.
Finally, by narrowing my attention to the furthest range visible in the morning light, I was able to pare this image down to its bare essentials. This, to me, is what the Zen of watercolor is all about.
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“Morning After / Monsoon”
I HAD LEFT MY HOUSE in Santa Fe at 5:30 AM in a light drizzle. I thought, after a night of steady rains, the cloud banks that inevitably follow an overnight storm would be worth pursuing. But, instead, they pursued me. Attempting to get out from under the rain I drove north, had a breakfast burrito at Bode’s in Abiquiu, and decided to head back south. Just south of Black Mesa the ground clouds parted and an extraordinary light landed on the wet earth and trees, sparking and shimmering against the lifting cloud bank.
I turned the car around, found a spot well out of the traffic lanes (but on top of an ant hill) and did this watercolor. The pinons really were black and there really was that vibrating pristine light.
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Dusk / Canejos Canyon
WE TOOK A FISHING and painting trip to Chama this week. I came away with two paintings but no fish. This canyon is just across the New Mexico boarder and is considered one of the most remote wilderness areas in Colorado. Meg said, “Oh, let’s stop here and read the ‘Interpretive Panels!” A term I’ve never heard before, her ‘interpretive panels’ had me chuckling to myself for the next hour. Winds were blowing and the air was dense with moisture as I did this painting. The distances are truly hard to describe.
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Vista Looking West / Highway 64
A FAVORITE DRIVE, highway 64 runs east and west through some very pretty northern New Mexico country. This painting was done from a pullout near Chama.
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Three Hills / South, East, North
THESE HILLS I’ve been painting have no name. They are a minor feature of a much greater, windblown and eroded region which tumbles down from the volcanic Jemez Range. Endlessly varied dunes and cliffs go on for miles. If you could set up a time laps camera to record this area over many millions of years it would appear as a great ocean of sand rippling and changing, much like the waves of the Pacific.
They stand alongside the road leading to Abiquiu. Every time I have rounded the bend to lay eyes on these conical forms my heart has leapt to their symmetry and grace. I made studies of three views from the south, east, and north.
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Fire Season
FIRES ARE RAGING in California, Colorado, Arizona and now New Mexico. I have been returning to a location just north of Black Mesa to study the sunrise looking east. With the Rio Grande River in the foreground, I have watched the Sangre de Cristo range, 20 miles distant, slowly emerge through the smoke haze as the sun rises — a perfect red sphere.
These dense, complex, and ever changing grays have been an extraordinary challenge that has gotten me up and out the door at 6 AM almost every morning for the last two weeks.
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Lot 32
THREE WEEKS AGO I was tossed from my paint site along highway 285 by the Tesuque Tribal Police! A week later I discovered Lot 32, a building lot in a new housing development just north of town near the Santa Fe Opera where I have done several studies for this triptych. SANTA FE IS NESTLED in the foothills of the Sangre de Cristo mountains which form the southernmost tip of the Rocky Mountain chain. Often people will fly into Albuquerque, drive up to Santa Fe for a vacation, then leave days later without ever discovering that just three miles to the north, just over the top of a small rise, lie some of the most beautiful vistas in New Mexico. This would be their first view from the top of that small rise, looking east.
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Route 14
ROUTE 14, ‘The Back Road,’ runs south and east, passing through the Manzano Mountains on its way to Los Cerrillos, Madrid, and eventually Albuquerque. I lived for a time off Bonanza Creek Road near The Lone Butte General Store. Situated on a high plateau, this once hard-grazing ranch country covered in thin forests of chola and prickly pear cacti, has been subdivided into ten and twenty acre lots. Far from water, wells are drilled quite deep with no guarantees. Living there, I always felt the keenness of being far from water. What beauty this austere and understated land conveys is found either in the distant geological vignettes which rise from the ruler-sharp horizon or in the intimate knowledge of one’s particular piece of land. I called Liz out one evening to watch the sunset. For 15 minutes, as we stood still and silent in our driveway. A shower approached with rainbow attached. We delighted as a covey of quail moved about our feet on their way to their night’s resting place. A rabbit stopped just feet away to observe our still forms in the warm glow of the setting sun. I was struck by all this life in a seemingly barren patch of land. Out to paint the sunset from my vantage point alongside the highway, I found the sky again consumed with smoke from the California fires which continue to rage. And so these two paintings have become part of the ‘Fire Season’ series, with the sky somehow as solid as the earth, the setting sun losing its light ten minutes early behind a gray-white wall of high-altitude smoke.
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Chama
I have always found paintings of the fall aspens to be cliche and overly sentimental, yet here I was, for four days, in the Chama River Valley, painting the changing aspen! I came away with just three tolerable paintings and a “Yellow Headache.”
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And now come these three vistas just before our first snowfall. Each the result of a haze of high altitude smoke, they appear predictive of an early snow.
November 2020: I have purchased a 14-passenger bus and converted it into a paint studio so that I might continue this series of plein air paintings through the winter. This triptych is the first painting completed from the comfort of my van/bus/studio. One passes by these cliffs located just five miles north of Santa Fe on I-285 when on the way to Taos and parts north.
March 14 Day 1: OK, so a virus has arrived and the country is shutting down. The streets of Santa Fe are quiet outside my studio window. I have been busy paintings, hoping for a good summer season which is now in question. It is time to share this new work. ART BOX, on the plaza, is also my studio space and so, no matter what happens you’ll find me there painting. This is what I do. I’ll try posting one painting each day till all have been shown. These are in no particular order.
Day 3: On day three of this Corona Virus spring a painting with the wildly inappropriate title of “Autumn Bouquet”.
Day 6: This week Roger called from LA, Don called from Albuquerque, and last night Jack called from cross town. We’re all just looking for contact.
Day 10: News out of DC is dire as a friend in Pecos tells me he has stopped watching the news and his biggest concern at the moment is having only six pounds of coffee left in the cupboard. I admire the way he’s dealing.
Day 11: Stay-at-home ordered for all of New Mexico beginning this morning. This means my studio doors stay locked for now. I will still be able to wave to you from my window, which was open yesterday to the new spring weather.
Day 12: While prunning trees in the late afternoon a parade of neighbors and not-so-neighbors came walking by. We’re all taking respite however we can.
Day 13: From a letter written yesterday to a friend in Nevada. “But there is a palpable sensation of constriction pervading the national psyche. It hangs about like a fog. Still, Meg and I went hiking in the foothills yesterday and, at least for the time of the hike, the cloud lifted”.
“I continue to paint like I am running out of time, even while I question the relevance of the creative drive in times of such disruption. I have always said, “The darker my mood the brighter my palette.” This has held true throughout the years but it always surprises me to see it. It surprises me to see it happening again. Sometimes these paintings can feel like beautiful lights growing out of a murky dusk or dawn”.
Day 14: Spent yesterday building a partial inclosure for our ‘second bin’. It took all day working in an off-and-on rain, gusting winds, and mid 50’s temps but it’s done and I have assured myself, falsely or no, that I am in control.
Day 15: At three AM the city was silent. The electric, gas, and water still worked. The house felt safe and warm. But outside the world seemed to have stopped. From the deck looking towards downtown a traffic light, directing to an empty street, changed from green to red and back again. / This morning the bird feeder is busy. The sun has come up as it always has.
Day 19: Visited via zoom with some dear friends in LA last night. Dreamed this morning of warm hugs with family. Life in a time of quarantine.
Day 21: Talking with Mary and Don last night I told them how, when at my most depressed I produce my most colorful paintings. “If they get any brighter I’ll be committing suicide!” I told them. Just a joke. But true that the paintings are getting brighter by the day.
Day 22: From a dream two nights ago. I sense a lot of people must be having similar dreams. “I was trotting along on a turning globe which suddenly stopped, leaving me stumbling forward trying to keep my balance.”
Day 23: We took the day off. No TV. No internet. No FB. Feeling much better. Of course this morning it was Sunday. If it’s Sunday it’s Meet The Press.
Day 25: The consequences seem to be mounting, or perhaps they are just dawning on me.
Day 28: World on fire. The center holds.
Day 30: Happy Easter everyone.
Day 31: Snow in Santa Fe. The silence is deafening.
Day 32: I finished rehanging ART BOX on Sunday. This included repairing and painting walls, labeling the backs of all the encaustic paintings completed this winter, rigging them to hang, and then (after rehanging the walls) cleaning the studio. All this was the result of last weeks push to photograph and edit all the new works. Yesterday I intended to paint all day. After lunch I lay down on my studio couch for a short nap and woke up two hours later. So this is what self quarantine looks like…
Day 33: Are we clear now what the consequences are? Or do you need more time in your room?
Day 36: Calm, people. Calm. And Kindness.
Day 38: Up to today, day 38, I have been posting paintings done over the winter. All these were completed before the stay-at-home order came down. My next post will begin showing those paintings done over this last month and a half period as the streets emptied and this unfolding disaster began showing itself outside my studio window.
Day 39: Now begin the paintings begun 39 days ago.
Day 40: It’s all beginning to feel like a passage, isn’t it? A journey to some place quite different from where we were.
Day 42: Did the virtual studio tour yesterday. 29 people showed up, a quarter of them were family. Thank you all for coming! It was lovely.
Day 44: Getting so many house projects done this spring I’m afraid we might run out of house!
Day 45: ‘Blessing’ Now more than ever.
Day 46: Summer has arrived. Temperatures will be in the high 70’s to low 80’s for the foreseeable future.
Time to break out the oils.
Day 47: While the news worsens daily we continue to tend our garden, meaning the house, studio, each other.
Day 49: Los Luceros is an historic hacienda set in the bosque north of Espanola. One of my favorite places in New Mexico, the old growth cottonwoods light up in the autumn in brilliant yellows.
Day 50: I’ve begun a few 36″ x 42″ panels, visualizing them as the finale of this series of encaustic paintings. Full days working on these large panels is leaving me physically, mentally, and emotionally exhausted.
Day 51: The country has begun to open up. We’ll see how bad this gets.
Day 52: Today I finally have the psychic space to begin contemplating how we might weather the next 12 to 18 months.
Day 53: Closing the bedroom window and blinds to the earliest morning light and a singing bird, I thought, “This could be the end of the world!” Given this early May heat generated by a warming planet and the political turmoil around the world going hardly noticed, drowned out by the cacophony of coverage of this pandemic which holds us all in place, we are, each of us, confronted with an uncertain future.
Day 54: I dreamed of large quantities of wood and cement, all delivered and set down on our hillside, while I began digging a foundation. My mother taught me this. The cure for depression, or the grief of loss, is work.
Day 55: Google Maps Timeline tells me this morning I have made eight stops in the last month, all within two miles of home. I have become my age (that is, if I were living in an assisted living facility). I do not like it…..
Day 63: These last two paintings are big ones (44″x37″) and finish off this series of encaustics, for now. Next week I return to oils. This has been, for me, a remarkable series. There is nothing like enthusiastically learning a new medium; letting it take you where it wants to go. Often we learn too well the lessons of a medium or subject, then spend the rest of our time trying to get back that initial enthusiasm once it is lost. After many years of painting I’ve learned to move on quickly as my excitement wains in the face of familiarity.
Day 64: After two months of entries, this is the last of the new encaustics. Its posting, coincidentally, falls on the first day of Phase One Reopening here in New Mexico. We are taking first steps into “A Capricious Season”. My fears are varied and many. My hopes are for a better world. This unusual final painting seems to delineate the struggle between those two seeming opposites; a balance ready to either float away or topple. Clearly, I stand on the side of hope. Let’s, everybody, be kind, please.
From an early age I was fascinated by the erotic drawings of Jules Pascin. Later, as my watercolor work matured and I discovered the oil paint, the elegance and graceful brevity to be found in the etchings of Henri Matisse became more interesting. These are the half forgotten sources of the drawings I have been executing over the last ten years.
I have been using these ink on moleskin paper drawings as source material for my abstract watercolors and oil paintings. Using them for purposes of abstraction has lent them an unusual perspective as I go in search of volumes of space.
These 12 drawings, while representative of a larger body of work, have become, for me, through years of use and subsequent familiarity, essential – elemental – iconic images.
In presenting these works in this manner (works which, up till now, have been simply reference material for the execution of complex paintings) I will admit, I am probably bestowing upon them too much love.
All images are 10″ x 7 1/2″ mounted on 15″ x 12″ Arches 88 paper.
This is a show proposal I recently prepared for a museum specializing in the figurative arts. I imagined this to be the foundation for a catalogue raisonné
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Stan Berning
“A Figurative Derivation”
paintings from 2002 to present
The medium in which I first discovered my voice was watercolor. This fluid paint, rich in the mythos of unintended consequence, taught me to believe in the accident as a tool to enlightenment and forward progress.
As a young man, just arrived to New Mexico, I drove for Pony Express, a courier service. My route took me between Santa Fe, Los Alamos, and Espanola at all times of the day and night and through all seasons and weather. In the triangle between these three cities lies a geology forming one of the most beautiful places on earth. As I drove I would come upon constantly changing natural visions of cloud, desert, mountain, and sky. I practiced memorizing those rapidly disappearing vignettes. Taking them home with me, I would then try to paint them. While studying the layering of a mist — a horizontal band of white and gray turned pinkish in the early morning light and as seemingly substantial as the earth itself with the peaks of the Jemez Range sitting firmly above and upon it, the golden autumn cottonwoods along the Rio Grande river meandering below — my permeable subconscious was plumbed to its depths as spaces were rearranged within my chest. The experiences of those drives, reinforced and made indelible by my exercises in memory and visualization, have continued to influence the work I create, making possible many of the stacked spacial arrangements of my architectural series and guaranteeing even my most nonrepresentational work’s impulse towards the majesty of the landscape. Twenty years later the late days of the high summer of my career would find me in a 2000 square foot studio in Santa Fe, NM.
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From the skylight, 20 feet above my head, I am bathed in a perfect well of light. I stand at my work table mixing paint. Before me on a large rolling easel sits a 4 x 6 foot painting. Described within the plane of this picture are vast tectonic plates moving and shifting as they contend with one another; a subtle and endless movement intended to hold the viewers attention… forever. The painting, divided nearly in half by aggressively incised lines made with a large metal straight edge and the nub of a blunt plastic pen, has reached the stage where all egg tempera paintings eventually must go. I work in silence, carefully mixing the paint to exacting hues and, with a small brush and infinite patience, carefully modulate these final moments in search of a perfect balance. An admirable journey of thousands of images done over the years has brought me to this one painting. It is not the best painting I have done. It is only another painting – a link in a chain of paintings – but it is the last painting of this series of wildly popular images which has been 15 years in the making. I am not aware, at this moment, that this painting is the last. It is the autumn of 2001. I am 50 years old. I do not realize summer is coming to an end.
The brushes have been cleaned and neatly returned to my work table. The painting has sat, all night, in the darkness, waiting passively as I have slept. Over my first cup of coffee I take one more hard look and decide it is finished. It is moved to a corner of the room and out of my field of vision. I pull out another white gessoed panel and place it on a second paint spattered easel. During the course of the day I have lunch with friends, take my dog for a walk, and mix the mud of five different pigments which has become my black and starting point. Towards evening I take the largest brush from my can of brushes and begin to slap large quantities of this mixed-black upon the surface of the board. I take my aluminum straightedge, make my first cut, and … stop. I have seen this mark before. I make another mark, this one dissecting the first at an odd angle, and stop. It is so familiar! All evening I search and find no new point of entry. During the next few weeks I try several different mediums. I return to the print studio, which had always before jarred me awake. Much to my chagrin, the door remains closed to me as if, while I had slept, an unremembered dream had placed all the images of my past, one upon the other, before my eyes to form an impenetrable wall.
When the tools and elements of image building are put in the service of ‘product creation’ it becomes possible for a person to know a thing so well that they lose awareness of the broad world of unknown possibilities which surround them. I had come to know myself too well. In the surety of my own hard won competence I had lost sight of The Mysteries; all those things we do not know, the discovery of which is the true source of creativity. My way had been firmly blocked.
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And so began my long search for a new aesthetic vocabulary.
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The subject upon which I chose to hang these new explorations was the human figure. Giving little thought to the more profound consequences this decision would have upon my personal and artistic life, I chose the figure simply for its quality of opposites to the minimal architecture of my recent past work. ”Perhaps,” I thought, “a new point of entry is on the opposite side of this thing called image building.”
I began with the monotype for, as I have said, it tends to jar me awake. I cut stencils based on the contours and silhouettes of the naked body and these were then inked, flipped, turned and printed using multiple passes through the press. I kept the process as spontaneous and unpredictable as possible. This work led to a series of 250 prints and an oddly familiar result. As the images resolved they became, again,volumes of space contending with one another within the picture plane. What, in the geometries, were tectonic subsurface volumes of strata became, in the figurative context, volumes of sky and cloud. A new door had opened but I had walked into the same room! This change of subject had the result of presenting a much different face to the world but my language had not expanded. I struggled with this new imagery for several years, wanting to commandeer them in my quest for a new and more satisfying approach. Eventually I realized that I had not turned over new soil. I was contending with a kind of self-limiting view – the sense of horizons placed too near me – created by the use of similar tools put in service to similar ends.
Like most artists of my generation I took many life drawing classes in college. I attended a few sessions each year since, simply for the hand/eye coordination exercise it provided. But as I continued using the figure in my finished work I began attending more sessions. There is no cheating in life drawing. In a landscape no one but the artist will know if a tree has been moved or the contour of a mountain changed. But a drawing of the human body, even allowing for it’s infinite varieties of shapes and sizes, is either accurately rendered, deliberately abstracted, or obviously flawed. Figure drawing, for me, has always been about getting out of the way while my eyes see and my hands render.
In 2006 I began attending 5 or more life drawing groups a week. At this time I wrote, “I have been getting eye-aches from these extended periods of drawing….. and a different kind of ache located behind the eyes and deeper in the brain tissue at an overworked muscle or synapses stimulated to its limit. This has only happened twice. Each time I have had to leave the session and rest for 24 hours.” Out of this intensely focused practice of seeing-for-the-sake-of-seeing came a selfless abandon and, with the letting go of personal control came a larger and more deeply experienced perception of both my emotional and aesthetic self.
In 2007 I painted a show consisting of oil pastel studies over grid works of pen and ink drawings. These explosive color-works consisted of contour figure drawings executed, one over the other, with the expressed intent of achieving a kind of moment to moment forgetfulness. They became a spiritual exercise in letting go of expectation and fear. I wrote during this time, “After another day of drawing and painting, I stood looking into an oil pastel of lush oranges, pinks, and whites as aggressive and juicy as any De Kooning. It is as if I had somehow gotten the fingers of my hands wedged between two parts of the painting process that, up till that moment, had fit together seamlessly and, like two flaps of skin, pulled them apart to expose the gut.”
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In 2009 I took these paintings further by using the figurative monotypes of 7 years past as a foundation over which to build the image. Using oil paints, I worked with the live model letting the contours, shadows, forms, and feelings found there excite the page. For a year I refused to speak of them, even to myself in my journal. They accumulated in a stack at one end of my work table, each placed there when finished and not looked at again. They were, to my mind, artifacts left over from the act of staying in the moment. I did not ask anything of them. I did not study them, fearing that reason would murder them.
As I signed and prepared these paintings for a show, I was struck by their lucidity and the pure joy they expressed through color, hue, texture and light. These improvisations – for that is surely what they are -were about abandon; not the practiced abandon of the well trained craftsman reproducing a known energetic stroke in pursuit of a desired result, but rather, a true and complete abandon which can only come to those who have nothing to lose. With no thought of preserving the mark just made nor any expectation of the mark to come; with my mind preoccupied in ’seeing’ the figure before me and thus distracted from the normally contemplative judgments of image making, I had danced for that hour or three on the edge of failure as close to the spirit of pure improvisation as I had ever come. In doing this body of work I rediscovered the joy and excitement of true risk taking, and I realized something quite surprising: all substantive art has, at its source, improvisation. Those architectural images of my past, which in many cases were so laborious to complete, began as acts of improvisational play. The excitement and appeal they still convey to the viewer is the result of the joy I felt while drawing out of those muddied black surfaces an image new to the world. For years I had played with that series till one morning I awoke to find the ability to play had left me. I’ll not soon forget the lessons of joyful play which lie at the heart of these paintings from 2009.
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Set upon this new course, my intention has been to build a creative future by renegotiating my vocabulary both as an artist and craftsman. By refusing familiar aesthetic resolves I have discovered new and unfamiliar possibilities. During this period I have dismantled most all those things of which I had become so sure. It has been a difficult process. This creative life of learning through discovery is not always an easy one, for revelations can be years in the making while some knowledge is gained by circuitous routes. In art, as in life, the world is full of rabbit holes. The act of painting-as-improvisation has placed the greater emphasis on intuitive ambiguity over thoughtful resolution and renewed my enthusiasm for the paint itself. Looking to the contour, mass, and energy of the human figure has provided me with a varied and seemingly endless physical, emotional, and spiritual resource from which to draw inspiration.
Each day for the last few years I have worked from the model for countless hours until the separation between self, subject, and the materials at hand have blurred. I no longer ask myself, “What is of me and what is of the subject – what is of my own ambition and what is of the self propelling impetus of the painting?” for I have found myself clothing the naked bodies of others with all the passions, fears, and contradictions of my own fluidly evolving psyche while releasing the image from the tyranny of personal expectation.
In this age, as in every human age, the body presented as subject, object, or metaphor is charged with a complexity of meaning made substantive by context, for as we gaze out from these eyes of ours we find our likeness, both beautiful and profane, staring back at us from the eyes of others. This complex system of flesh, bone, and brain which is the human body is the result of millions of years of a terrestrial biology striving in its nature towards greater and greater complexity. It is no secret why the timbre and tone of each painting’s melody — set in space and made physical by its vibrancy of color, compositional structure, quality of line, and surface treatment — is realized in elements mirroring those of landscape, for in my deepest self I remain transformed by those early years studying the vistas of the Southwest, while the contours and crevices of the human form naturally echo the geological and biological features of the planet from which it has evolved.
Watercolors first taught me that in the course of honest exploration there come moments of awed surprise which are the key to all that we, as artists, do. Having spent the last several years renegotiating the artistic process, I now feel the creative force again flowing freely and powerfully. As I return each day to my light filled studio, I cherish, with more self awareness than ever before, those personal moments of utter surprise and subsequent revelation, for they make possible this magic thing I do.