Mr. Berning, a resident of Santa Fe since 1981, is a well known artist, author, teacher, and former gallery owner . His works have been exhibited in such diverse locations as San Francisco, Paris, and New York’s Lincoln Center. In 2005 his paintings became the focus of the film OFF THE MAP starring Joan Allen and Sam Elliott. Also in 2005 he began a year long journey up the west coast of North America. Experiences during this time became the foundation for his memoir about art, which was written over the next three years.
Evocative of the New Mexico landscape with its sweeping vistas and ever changing light, these most recent oil, egg tempera, and watercolor paintings are the result of a fifteen year process described in the entry “A Figurative Derivation”.
Artist Statement:
Being a painter, I was born in 1951 already an antique. After a lifetime of creating images in this post modern world I have come to champion no ism’s. Taking to heart my eighty year old friend’s reminder that his generation made sure everything had been done, I have proceeded to do everything in each painting. The resulting fifteen oil paintings, though inevitably stamped with my distinctive aesthetic voice, travel freely through various fields of contemporary exploration. Accepting that the act of working in paint will result in the echo of vaguely familiar imagery from past painters has released me from the tyrannical demand for newness and, ironically, opened the process to a multitude of possibilities embodied in each individual painting. If it has all been done before there is no territory worth defending. One either stands on shifting sands, or swims.
Many of the paintings completed in this series have sold making viewing of the remaining images difficult. This entry of only available work will update regularly.
All paintings are 18″ x 24″ on 24″ x 30″ paper unless otherwise noted.
Sand Castle
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First Light / Tetilla Peak
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Early Winter / The View East
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Morning Looking South / Black Mesa
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Another Blue / Pedernal
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Dry Wash / Los Barrancos
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View to Jicarita Peak
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Autumn Interstice
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View South From Las Golondrinas
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Autumn / Into the Canyon
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TRIPTYCH
Vista / East (left panel)
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Vista / South East (center panel)
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Vista / East (right panel)
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Morning / Sun and Moon
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Distant Range
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Aspen Stand / Sangre de Cristo Range
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Galisteo Clear
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Big View to Cerro Bonanza
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Long View to La Bajada Hill
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Monsoon Season / Golondrinas
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Summer Solstice / Pedernal
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Bright Afternoon / La Bajada / One
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Spring Fields / La Bajada
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El Rancho de las Golondrinas
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Blue Mountain
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Alameda Spring
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Early Spring / The View to La Cienega
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Early Spring / View to the River
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Road to Lyden / Changing April
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Pedernal / From the High Mesa
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Spring Field / Looking South
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Three Aspects
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View to the Lava Fields / San Felipe
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Lake View / Pedernal
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Winter Snow / Nambe Badlands
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Placer Spring
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Lake View
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Long View to Pajarito
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Sandia Blue / Long View
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Winter Tree Stand / La Melilla
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Mercurial Noon
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Treeline / Abiquiu
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Winter Range / From Santa Clara Pueblo
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Dawn / Sun and Moon
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Storm Approach / Los Barrancos
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Tree Line / View South / Abiquiu
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View to Truchas Peak from Santa Clara Pueblo
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View to the River / La Cienega
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Blue Pedernal #2
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The View East / Espanola Valley
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To Dream of the Jemez
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Pedernal / View to the Lake #1
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View West to Soletta
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Ghosts / The White Place
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Morning / Black Mesa
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Summer Bosque / Road to Lyden
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Summer Arroyo / San Felipe
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Afternoon Showers / Ghost Ranch
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Controlled Burn / El Rito
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Low Stratus / View to the North
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Sandia Blue
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Canyon Showers / Abiquiu
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Winter Tree Stand / La Mesilla Three
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Spring Fields / Abiquiu
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Canyon Showers
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From Paseo de la Cuma
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Last Snow
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The View North to La Bajada
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Into The Valley
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Perfect Cloud
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Winter Shadow / Sierra Negra
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Winter Looking South / Galisteo Basin
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Behind the Tree / Sun
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Autumn / La Cienega
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The View South / Showers
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Summer Pasture / Abiquiu Inn
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Morning Overlook / Espanola Valley II
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Monsoon Summer / Midday
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The Ghosts of La Cienega
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Sandia Blue 18″ x 24″ 2021
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Long View to Pojoaque / Early Light 18″ x 24″ 2021
Jemez Complex / Winter Dressed / View South, West, North
The Jemez Complex is an extinct super volcano. It was created one million years ago in a series of massive explosions. What remains is a mountain of remarkably varied topography. Here, seen from Lower Pacheco Canyon, 20 miles away, the mountain range presents itself in its greatest majesty. These paintings were completed late in the afternoon on consecutive days.
While each panel stands well on its own, I am fascinated by how they speak to each other, lending a transcendent layer of complexity to the whole; this while its palette captures perfectly this blue-steel, mid-winter light.
Jemez Complex / Winter Dressed / View South
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Jemez Complex / Winter Dressed / View West
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Jemez Complex / Winter Dressed / View North
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Bright Winter / Sangre de Cristo Range
This winter sun, under clear skies, reflected off snow covered mountains can be blinding.
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Metallic Sunset / Pena Blanca
This view, looks out over agricultural fields which end in a tree line where the Rio Grande River runs through. The foothills of the southern end of the Jemez Range rise in the distance. Done the day before a snow storm, bands of high clouds were moving in from the west.
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Long View / St Peters Dome
“Long View / St Peters Dome” is another painting from the Cochiti Village paint site. Cliffs of blasted earth have been smoothed by a million years into these powerful undulating forms. They were too distant to truly be capture in this painting. Still, I managed to find some of their magnitude.
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Dome Wilderness / South Gate
I try not to be sentimental. As an artist, it is a mistake to place too much emotional or psychic meaning into these places I visit. It simply does not help with the work. While painting this view from Cochiti Village a thought kept needling my brain. ‘This is not just a distant view of the plateaus from which the Rio Grande River emerges from the Jemez Range, but rather there is some portal here’. I was delighted then to later discover its name: Dome Wilderness / South Gate.
This new series of monoprints are based on recent watercolors using an “image-on” platemaking process. They are hand inked, one-of-a-kind, artist produced images. This series began in April of 2023 as part of the Santa Fe Monothon. During the week long event I had a great time returning to my printmaking roots. I hope to add to this series as the year progresses.
Image size is 18″ x 24″ on 24″ x 30″ Arches 88 paper
Thus far we have had a productive monsoon season with afternoon storms rolling in almost every afternoon. After last years arid smoke filled summer it is a relief. Many of these late season paintings have become about the monsoons.
All these images measure 18″ x 24″ on 24″ x 30″ paper.
Tetilla Peak From Bonanza Ranch
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Storm Over The Sangre De Cristo Mountains
This was completed last month when spring storms had left the skies in a constant state of drama.
(sold)
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Spring Bosque / Road to Lyden
Another from this spring. The new-green in the trees had me aching for summer. Now summer is here with a heat wave. I stopped by this paint site yesterday and found this valley dense with foliage, green upon green upon green.
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Long View to Pedernal
I’ve been trying to paint the distinctive Pedernal. O’Keeffe painted it many times and said “God told me once if I painted it enough, I could have it.” This is the first version I have felt comfortable enough with to mount and photograph.
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The Ghosts of La Cienega
Nestled in sensuous hills south of Santa Fe is the village of La Cienega. In the early days wagon trains would stop at El Rancho de las Golondrinas (now a museum of sorts) to refresh themselves before the journey north to Santa Fe or south to Albuquerque. The roads, lined with ancient cottonwoods, have always felt a bit haunted to me thus, when this image appeared on my easil, the title.
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Minimal Horizon / Tetilla Peak
These two paintings were done from Bonanza Ranch Road. I have spent a lot of time painting from this high point in the landscape which signals the transition between southern and northern New Mexico. Big views and multiple horizons.
Minimal Horizon / Cerrillos Hills
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Foothills / Manzano Range 1
Meant to hang together (obviously) these two pieces were done from a high point on Waldo Canyon Road looking east to the Ortiz Range.
Foothills / Manzano Range 2
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Summer Bosque / Road to Lyden
The first painting of this place was in winter. I returned to capture it in the spring with its tree branches budding new-green. Here the trees of summer and humid warmth of the air lend a more sculptural feel to this scene, the whole image becoming less wild and more bucolic.
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Bridge to La Cienega
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Sandia Blue II
The only opaque area of this painting is the distant Sandia Range, which translates in the photo as the lightest and most airy portion of the image. Thus the title “Sandia Blue”.
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Long View to Pojoaque / Early Light
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Monsoon Summer / Jemez Range
This time of year clouds build over the Jemez Range, 20 miles to the west, then move east to rain on our city. This one became a big blow just as I was finishing. The evenings are cool from the fresh rains.
Last year, with the pandemic raging and all activity shut down, I found my studio overlooking the empty streets of Santa Fe intolerably depressing. And so I began a series of plein air paintings which took me into the mountains and fresh air, away from people but still into an environment able to feed my spirit. During the warm summer and autumn weather I managed to complete over 20 paintings.
Come winter I was not ready to end this series and so I purchased a small bus and, pulling the seats out, transformed it into a studio on wheels. Through the winter I have continued painting this New Mexico landscape.
While I have always considered the attempt to capture the vast spaces of northern New Mexico in paint a fool’s errand (and still do) I am finding my last 40 years spent as an abstract artist has informed these images making for some unique resolves. To my eye, these representational landscapes have been born from my many years of studio work. After some severe editing I have nearly 20 new winter paintings to show you.
Each painting measure 18″ x 24″ mounted to 24″ x 30″ paper.
Winter Bosque / Road to Lyden
This is a floodplain just north of Espanola and the Ohkay Owingeh Pueblo, part of the Rio Grande River valley flowing down out of the Taos George. The Sangre de Cristo range is in the distance. These bosque cottonwood stands are of special interests to me. They are ancient spirits by human reckoning.
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Cerro de la Cruz / Snow Storm
This conical hill, visible to your east on the drive into Santa Fe from Albuquerque, has been painted by a number of artists over the years, including a beautiful tempera painting be Peter Hurd in the early 50’s. On a day of blustery winds and snow showers, this painting was finished in a whiteout of blowing snow.
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Long View to Las Barrancas
The tribal police showed up to ask what on earth I was doing on a rough service road leading up to a billboard sign. I was working on this painting of Las Barrancas, a formation of sand cliffs that overlook Pojoague Pueblo. I’m getting to know officers from several of the pueblos round about.
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Abiquiu / View to the White Cliffs
This is up in Abiquiu, some 40 miles north of Santa Fe. In the foreground runs the Chama river. Above the line of cottonwood trees that grow wherever there is a steady supply of water, white gypsum cliffs glow bright in the afternoon winter light. Those cliffs are framed by the much larger foothills of the Jemez Complex, now falling into late afternoon shadow.
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Patriarchs
These “Patriarchs” (or Matriarchs if you prefer) stand alone in a field on the drive from Albuquerque to Santa Fe. 40 years ago, when I first moved to New Mexico, they stood there. Over the years they became for me (and I’m sure for thousands of commuters) a signpost on the drive too and from. I have always seen them while driving past at 75mph. Finally I have taken the time to stop and show my respect.
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Winter Tree Stand / La Mesilla
La Mesilla (‘The Table’ in Spanish) is a little community just south of Espanola. A row of houses, each with a fenced backyard, sits on the table top. Behind and below this line of backyards the land abruptly drops off 20 feet to the bosque (‘forest’ in Spanish) where pueblo land begins and runs from there to the river. This stand of trees grows in a large drainage arroyo that empties out into the bosque at the northern edge of this community. Over the 5 consecutive days it took for me to paint this tree stand I met several neighbors who stopped by to make sure I wasn’t there to cause trouble. On the fourth day I took a walk into the bosque and fell in love with the wild nature of the thousands of ungroomed cottonwood trees. I’ve not been back. I actually fear that I love this place too much! The trees were a challenge.
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View South to the Sandia Range
The Sandia mountains are 50 miles to the south. I had this view every day driving home when I lived in Julianna Young’s studio out on Nine Mile Road.
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Hills of La Cienega
La Cienega is a working class neighborhood, nestled in beautiful rolling hills, with ponds and 300 year old cottonwood trees getting their nourishment from the Santa Fe River (barely a trickle through much of the year this far south of its source). These hills are visible from the highway south of Santa Fe.
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Clear Day / View to the Ortiz Range
This is the left and right hand panels of a two panel piece, each done on the same day and location. It is another long view east to the Ortiz Mountains and south to the distant Sandia range. The Cerrillos Hills are in the foreground. It was a very, very clear day.
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Clear Day / View to the Sandia Range
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Long View North From Bonanza Ranch
I’ve done several “Long Views” this winter Many of these vistas are from the La Bajada area, a high point in the landscape south of Santa Fe. This view is looking back towards Santa Fe from Bonanza Ranch where many western movies have been filmed. It was a very clear day.
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Long View West
With Tetilla Peak sitting above the valley of South Santa Fe, the Jemez Complex is visible 30 miles away. It was a blustery day.
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Long View East From La Bajada
This view looking east from La Bajada Hill was filled with a big sky, the Ortiz Range in the distance. The Long View South panel completes the panorama.
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Long View South From La Bajada
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Tree Stand / Taos Pueblo
All this talk about these landscapes I’ve been doing being so spare, well, that comes much from the subject. This is New Mexico with its vast spaces and profound distances. I like to believe that my technique is no technique, only a desire to bring to completion in whatever way necessary the scene before me. Evidence proof below in “Tree Stand / Taos Pueblo”, an image in which every technique I dislike using is used, this to make the trees read properly. I will probably return to this place and try the same subject more tightly edited.
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View North to Cerrillos Hills
This is a view of the Cerrillos Hills from just north of Madrid on route 14. Down in the valley, not visible from this viewpoint, lays Cerrillos, an old mining town, almost but not quite forgotten.
These last three paintings were done during a week long period of clear, cloudless skies. Since then spring has become insistent. New Green is everywhere.
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Las Barrancas
Here is the last painting in my winter portfolio of watercolors. It is a closer view of Las Barrancas, a formation overlooking Pojoaque Pueblo. It is now mid April. The cool winter light is changing as the sun moves higher overhead. The trees are budding. I’ll be curious to see what happens to my palette in the coming months.
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Long View West From Golden
This is a long view looking west from a turnoff near the little town of Golden located on Rt 14, the back road from Albuquerque to Santa Fe. A wide expanse which overlooks the Rio Grande river valley. This is one of the worlds largest “Rift” valleys in the world, stretching from a region north of Taos to an area south of Albuquerque. From this long view one can see west to Grant, 60 miles away.
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Sangre Zen
Painted from our friend’s driveway on Tano Road, this triptych will hang above their bed.
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Tetilla Peak From Bonanza Ranch
Looking west from Bonanza Creek Road, the dark lip of La Bajada divides the upper and lower portions of this painting. From the upper Rio Grande Valley (north) La Bajada Hill drops 500 feet to the lower Rio Grande Valley (south).
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Spring Bosque / Road to Lyden
This is a spring version of a winter painting from the same location, done when the ‘new green’ was just emerging from the trees.
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Mesa Montosa / Noon Light
I like this painting’s ‘suggestion’ of superstructure. It is a first attempt at the cliffs of Ghost Ranch. The noon light flattened all this mesa’s layered outthrustings of rock. Its volumes could only be described by the weight of sky and minimal tree line.
MANY YEARS AGO I concluded that painting representational landscapes of New Mexico was a fool’s errand. Those vistas would always overwhelm any attempt to be captured with such a measly medium as paint on canvas. Also, there are so many artists in New Mexico that have made a life’s work of the subject and are capable of doing a much better job of it than me. Still, sometimes we simply have to do the work for the nourishment of our spirit. And, to be honest, I have never done a thing that did not contain the stamp of my personal aesthetic. AND SO, with the heat of summer underway, I find myself venturing outside with my sketch tools and watercolors to paint from life. This ‘on location’ work has been keeping me engaged. With the pandemic having removed many of the common signposts of daily life, this return to observational painting and the landscape I’ve loved for the last 40 years has been emotionally grounding. AT THE MOMENT I am thinking of this work as an intermission. A time to grab a popcorn and coke, and a smoke on the sidewalk outside the theater, before the next act.
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“Black Mesa”
‘BLACK MESA’ STARTED all this plein air work. It was completed over a three day period with me working out the back of our Honda CRV while Meg collected trash along side the road or read her book. Later we would have a picnic dinner before driving home in the dark; three perfect pandemic evenings.
I drove by this spirit-place four times a day for several years. This was 40 years ago when I had just moved to New Mexico. It is a personal touchstone and a place I’ve always wanted to paint.
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“Overlook Park / North, East, South View”
THIS SECOND THREE panel painting has taken several weeks to complete and involved repeated visits to the site. This view, from a mesa 800 feet above the valley floor, looks north to the Colorado border, east to the Sangre de Cristo range, and south into White Rock Canyon through which the Rio Grande River flows on its way to Cochiti Reservoir. This place has always stunned me into silent humility.
Daring to attempt this vista is a testament to my painterly ambitions and an illustration of just how foolhardy an endeavor this attempt to capture the spaces of New Mexico can be. Still, I like the results.
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“Long View North / Abiquiu Lake”
“Long View North / Abiquiu Lake” is the result of two mornings’ attempts to paint the lake, which lies at the northern edge of the Jemez Complex. From my vantage point well above the water I had a large view of the lake and its surrounding typography which included the western edge of Ghost Ranch several miles distant. Several failed attempts offered busy, illustrative renderings with little sense of the actual space and light.
Finally, by narrowing my attention to the furthest range visible in the morning light, I was able to pare this image down to its bare essentials. This, to me, is what the Zen of watercolor is all about.
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“Morning After / Monsoon”
I HAD LEFT MY HOUSE in Santa Fe at 5:30 AM in a light drizzle. I thought, after a night of steady rains, the cloud banks that inevitably follow an overnight storm would be worth pursuing. But, instead, they pursued me. Attempting to get out from under the rain I drove north, had a breakfast burrito at Bode’s in Abiquiu, and decided to head back south. Just south of Black Mesa the ground clouds parted and an extraordinary light landed on the wet earth and trees, sparking and shimmering against the lifting cloud bank.
I turned the car around, found a spot well out of the traffic lanes (but on top of an ant hill) and did this watercolor. The pinons really were black and there really was that vibrating pristine light.
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Dusk / Canejos Canyon
WE TOOK A FISHING and painting trip to Chama this week. I came away with two paintings but no fish. This canyon is just across the New Mexico boarder and is considered one of the most remote wilderness areas in Colorado. Meg said, “Oh, let’s stop here and read the ‘Interpretive Panels!” A term I’ve never heard before, her ‘interpretive panels’ had me chuckling to myself for the next hour. Winds were blowing and the air was dense with moisture as I did this painting. The distances are truly hard to describe.
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Vista Looking West / Highway 64
A FAVORITE DRIVE, highway 64 runs east and west through some very pretty northern New Mexico country. This painting was done from a pullout near Chama.
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Three Hills / South, East, North
THESE HILLS I’ve been painting have no name. They are a minor feature of a much greater, windblown and eroded region which tumbles down from the volcanic Jemez Range. Endlessly varied dunes and cliffs go on for miles. If you could set up a time laps camera to record this area over many millions of years it would appear as a great ocean of sand rippling and changing, much like the waves of the Pacific.
They stand alongside the road leading to Abiquiu. Every time I have rounded the bend to lay eyes on these conical forms my heart has leapt to their symmetry and grace. I made studies of three views from the south, east, and north.
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Fire Season
FIRES ARE RAGING in California, Colorado, Arizona and now New Mexico. I have been returning to a location just north of Black Mesa to study the sunrise looking east. With the Rio Grande River in the foreground, I have watched the Sangre de Cristo range, 20 miles distant, slowly emerge through the smoke haze as the sun rises — a perfect red sphere.
These dense, complex, and ever changing grays have been an extraordinary challenge that has gotten me up and out the door at 6 AM almost every morning for the last two weeks.
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Lot 32
THREE WEEKS AGO I was tossed from my paint site along highway 285 by the Tesuque Tribal Police! A week later I discovered Lot 32, a building lot in a new housing development just north of town near the Santa Fe Opera where I have done several studies for this triptych. SANTA FE IS NESTLED in the foothills of the Sangre de Cristo mountains which form the southernmost tip of the Rocky Mountain chain. Often people will fly into Albuquerque, drive up to Santa Fe for a vacation, then leave days later without ever discovering that just three miles to the north, just over the top of a small rise, lie some of the most beautiful vistas in New Mexico. This would be their first view from the top of that small rise, looking east.
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Route 14
ROUTE 14, ‘The Back Road,’ runs south and east, passing through the Manzano Mountains on its way to Los Cerrillos, Madrid, and eventually Albuquerque. I lived for a time off Bonanza Creek Road near The Lone Butte General Store. Situated on a high plateau, this once hard-grazing ranch country covered in thin forests of chola and prickly pear cacti, has been subdivided into ten and twenty acre lots. Far from water, wells are drilled quite deep with no guarantees. Living there, I always felt the keenness of being far from water. What beauty this austere and understated land conveys is found either in the distant geological vignettes which rise from the ruler-sharp horizon or in the intimate knowledge of one’s particular piece of land. I called Liz out one evening to watch the sunset. For 15 minutes, as we stood still and silent in our driveway. A shower approached with rainbow attached. We delighted as a covey of quail moved about our feet on their way to their night’s resting place. A rabbit stopped just feet away to observe our still forms in the warm glow of the setting sun. I was struck by all this life in a seemingly barren patch of land. Out to paint the sunset from my vantage point alongside the highway, I found the sky again consumed with smoke from the California fires which continue to rage. And so these two paintings have become part of the ‘Fire Season’ series, with the sky somehow as solid as the earth, the setting sun losing its light ten minutes early behind a gray-white wall of high-altitude smoke.
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Chama
I have always found paintings of the fall aspens to be cliche and overly sentimental, yet here I was, for four days, in the Chama River Valley, painting the changing aspen! I came away with just three tolerable paintings and a “Yellow Headache.”
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And now come these three vistas just before our first snowfall. Each the result of a haze of high altitude smoke, they appear predictive of an early snow.
November 2020: I have purchased a 14-passenger bus and converted it into a paint studio so that I might continue this series of plein air paintings through the winter. This triptych is the first painting completed from the comfort of my van/bus/studio. One passes by these cliffs located just five miles north of Santa Fe on I-285 when on the way to Taos and parts north.
March 14 Day 1: OK, so a virus has arrived and the country is shutting down. The streets of Santa Fe are quiet outside my studio window. I have been busy paintings, hoping for a good summer season which is now in question. It is time to share this new work. ART BOX, on the plaza, is also my studio space and so, no matter what happens you’ll find me there painting. This is what I do. I’ll try posting one painting each day till all have been shown. These are in no particular order.
Day 3: On day three of this Corona Virus spring a painting with the wildly inappropriate title of “Autumn Bouquet”.
Day 6: This week Roger called from LA, Don called from Albuquerque, and last night Jack called from cross town. We’re all just looking for contact.
Day 10: News out of DC is dire as a friend in Pecos tells me he has stopped watching the news and his biggest concern at the moment is having only six pounds of coffee left in the cupboard. I admire the way he’s dealing.
Day 11: Stay-at-home ordered for all of New Mexico beginning this morning. This means my studio doors stay locked for now. I will still be able to wave to you from my window, which was open yesterday to the new spring weather.
Day 12: While prunning trees in the late afternoon a parade of neighbors and not-so-neighbors came walking by. We’re all taking respite however we can.
Day 13: From a letter written yesterday to a friend in Nevada. “But there is a palpable sensation of constriction pervading the national psyche. It hangs about like a fog. Still, Meg and I went hiking in the foothills yesterday and, at least for the time of the hike, the cloud lifted”.
“I continue to paint like I am running out of time, even while I question the relevance of the creative drive in times of such disruption. I have always said, “The darker my mood the brighter my palette.” This has held true throughout the years but it always surprises me to see it. It surprises me to see it happening again. Sometimes these paintings can feel like beautiful lights growing out of a murky dusk or dawn”.
Day 14: Spent yesterday building a partial inclosure for our ‘second bin’. It took all day working in an off-and-on rain, gusting winds, and mid 50’s temps but it’s done and I have assured myself, falsely or no, that I am in control.
Day 15: At three AM the city was silent. The electric, gas, and water still worked. The house felt safe and warm. But outside the world seemed to have stopped. From the deck looking towards downtown a traffic light, directing to an empty street, changed from green to red and back again. / This morning the bird feeder is busy. The sun has come up as it always has.
Day 19: Visited via zoom with some dear friends in LA last night. Dreamed this morning of warm hugs with family. Life in a time of quarantine.
Day 21: Talking with Mary and Don last night I told them how, when at my most depressed I produce my most colorful paintings. “If they get any brighter I’ll be committing suicide!” I told them. Just a joke. But true that the paintings are getting brighter by the day.
Day 22: From a dream two nights ago. I sense a lot of people must be having similar dreams. “I was trotting along on a turning globe which suddenly stopped, leaving me stumbling forward trying to keep my balance.”
Day 23: We took the day off. No TV. No internet. No FB. Feeling much better. Of course this morning it was Sunday. If it’s Sunday it’s Meet The Press.
Day 25: The consequences seem to be mounting, or perhaps they are just dawning on me.
Day 28: World on fire. The center holds.
Day 30: Happy Easter everyone.
Day 31: Snow in Santa Fe. The silence is deafening.
Day 32: I finished rehanging ART BOX on Sunday. This included repairing and painting walls, labeling the backs of all the encaustic paintings completed this winter, rigging them to hang, and then (after rehanging the walls) cleaning the studio. All this was the result of last weeks push to photograph and edit all the new works. Yesterday I intended to paint all day. After lunch I lay down on my studio couch for a short nap and woke up two hours later. So this is what self quarantine looks like…
Day 33: Are we clear now what the consequences are? Or do you need more time in your room?
Day 36: Calm, people. Calm. And Kindness.
Day 38: Up to today, day 38, I have been posting paintings done over the winter. All these were completed before the stay-at-home order came down. My next post will begin showing those paintings done over this last month and a half period as the streets emptied and this unfolding disaster began showing itself outside my studio window.
Day 39: Now begin the paintings begun 39 days ago.
Day 40: It’s all beginning to feel like a passage, isn’t it? A journey to some place quite different from where we were.
Day 42: Did the virtual studio tour yesterday. 29 people showed up, a quarter of them were family. Thank you all for coming! It was lovely.
Day 44: Getting so many house projects done this spring I’m afraid we might run out of house!
Day 45: ‘Blessing’ Now more than ever.
Day 46: Summer has arrived. Temperatures will be in the high 70’s to low 80’s for the foreseeable future.
Time to break out the oils.
Day 47: While the news worsens daily we continue to tend our garden, meaning the house, studio, each other.
Day 49: Los Luceros is an historic hacienda set in the bosque north of Espanola. One of my favorite places in New Mexico, the old growth cottonwoods light up in the autumn in brilliant yellows.
Day 50: I’ve begun a few 36″ x 42″ panels, visualizing them as the finale of this series of encaustic paintings. Full days working on these large panels is leaving me physically, mentally, and emotionally exhausted.
Day 51: The country has begun to open up. We’ll see how bad this gets.
Day 52: Today I finally have the psychic space to begin contemplating how we might weather the next 12 to 18 months.
Day 53: Closing the bedroom window and blinds to the earliest morning light and a singing bird, I thought, “This could be the end of the world!” Given this early May heat generated by a warming planet and the political turmoil around the world going hardly noticed, drowned out by the cacophony of coverage of this pandemic which holds us all in place, we are, each of us, confronted with an uncertain future.
Day 54: I dreamed of large quantities of wood and cement, all delivered and set down on our hillside, while I began digging a foundation. My mother taught me this. The cure for depression, or the grief of loss, is work.
Day 55: Google Maps Timeline tells me this morning I have made eight stops in the last month, all within two miles of home. I have become my age (that is, if I were living in an assisted living facility). I do not like it…..
Day 63: These last two paintings are big ones (44″x37″) and finish off this series of encaustics, for now. Next week I return to oils. This has been, for me, a remarkable series. There is nothing like enthusiastically learning a new medium; letting it take you where it wants to go. Often we learn too well the lessons of a medium or subject, then spend the rest of our time trying to get back that initial enthusiasm once it is lost. After many years of painting I’ve learned to move on quickly as my excitement wains in the face of familiarity.
Day 64: After two months of entries, this is the last of the new encaustics. Its posting, coincidentally, falls on the first day of Phase One Reopening here in New Mexico. We are taking first steps into “A Capricious Season”. My fears are varied and many. My hopes are for a better world. This unusual final painting seems to delineate the struggle between those two seeming opposites; a balance ready to either float away or topple. Clearly, I stand on the side of hope. Let’s, everybody, be kind, please.